Quiet Before the Storm
I may smile and make you feel great about yourself; I may be the perfect girl to bring home to your mother because I make her feel like she has another daughter; I may seem like the epitome of all that is the American dream of being a great mommy and a great wife, but there is something brewing deep inside me. I am all those things, but I am so much more. I am the herald of great change. Now that I have forgiven and asked forgiveness for the harm I have caused and that has been caused in my life, I am ready.
Something ancient is throwing stones inside me and screaming to be free. I could run for miles and miles with no reason, as long as it's cold and I can see my breath in the air and I have time for no thought and the burn of my muscles working together to get me farther away. It is waking up again.
I am a nomadic woman. I can't stay in place or in line for long. Nothing is as it should be in this world, and as long as I have air in my lungs and energy in my body, I will not be silent. You may be content to live your life according to your pleasures, but that is not my place. I feel others' pain. I can feel it from miles and continents away. Just because I am one person does not mean that there is nothing I can do.
Here is where I am going to start.
The Lakota people of the Dakotas have suffered for a very long time. I am currently accepting donations of coats, blankets, food, and other items of need to these people, which will be delivered by convoy in the upcoming months. Not only will we seek to restore them in terms of their living situation, but also their spirituality. Everyone needs balance in their lives, and everyone needs to know the power within them. One can only bring the horse to water.
In my own life, I make time daily to sit in a quiet room and remove all thought from my mind. Being still and silent within myself helps bring balance, purpose and creativity to my life. My writing still evades me, but the things I need come after long periods of quiet. I urge you to find that for yourself, as well.
Something ancient is throwing stones inside me and screaming to be free. I could run for miles and miles with no reason, as long as it's cold and I can see my breath in the air and I have time for no thought and the burn of my muscles working together to get me farther away. It is waking up again.
I am a nomadic woman. I can't stay in place or in line for long. Nothing is as it should be in this world, and as long as I have air in my lungs and energy in my body, I will not be silent. You may be content to live your life according to your pleasures, but that is not my place. I feel others' pain. I can feel it from miles and continents away. Just because I am one person does not mean that there is nothing I can do.
Here is where I am going to start.
The Lakota people of the Dakotas have suffered for a very long time. I am currently accepting donations of coats, blankets, food, and other items of need to these people, which will be delivered by convoy in the upcoming months. Not only will we seek to restore them in terms of their living situation, but also their spirituality. Everyone needs balance in their lives, and everyone needs to know the power within them. One can only bring the horse to water.
In my own life, I make time daily to sit in a quiet room and remove all thought from my mind. Being still and silent within myself helps bring balance, purpose and creativity to my life. My writing still evades me, but the things I need come after long periods of quiet. I urge you to find that for yourself, as well.